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Why We Breathe ?!!


Look at the freakin definition of the term beat:

Hit ! As in strike a note, beat a drum. (Referring to how the beat is the recognised/heard struck chord within the formless.)

Pulse or throb as in a heart beat, back and forth.

Whisk around as in beat an egg (cycles).

Defeat, as in beat your enemy, overcome,

‘break’ as in beat the odds.

Tired as in ‘I’m dead beat,

and finally Path or Route as in ‘The policeman walks his beat’.

The Ripple Effect:

The primal universe starts off with the simple paradox that it’s both infinite and finite
0 & 1

and in recognizing that differential, that shifting movement in the stillness, it begins to recognize itself:

01010101 ‘I see change……..
00110101010101 ……….I………
010001111001010101 Me…….who am I?
001000101010101010100101 What is I?

and then it all kicks off!

The beat is what guarantees the code of self re-cognition — the mechanism of self recollection !

The beat is what prevents the viewer from melting into any view… Its what prevents the Dreamer from loosing himself to the Dream…

I am neither real nor unreal, neither dreaming nor awake — whispers The Beat in my ears

I build castles in the sands of time only to witness the waves of infinity level them to the ground…

Just when the dream is about to get real, I report back to the dreamer (the eye that never sleeps), the one who knows i’m only dreaming — The SAVIOR

On my way there, I cross no man’s land, a gap of absurdity in between 0 and 1 that negates the logic of the entrance and throws me right in the middle of another dream…

I am constantly fluxing in and off, rebooting by the second, regenerating by the moment — contrary to every historical logic, to every empirical theory, to every sequential claim over the Now…

The Creation moment?!! It’s a moment still in creation –

The Beat is what preserves that moment from loosing itself to its own momentum ! Its what keeps the mind stable — what holds the now in place !

The 01 code sprung forth from a primeval need embedded deep in the ‘I’ that I call ‘me’- the need to script myself into presence — the need to feel my presence through a story — the need to be historical…

Imagine you being locked inside a room, knowing you exist with no existence of An Other to verify such existence, feeling beautiful, with no vision of An Other to admire such beauty…

The Primeval Power (God, The Core or Whatever you wish to call it) acknowledges this need; and this constitutes the original mathematics of the Creation Moment:

God creates an Eye Looking From HIM through HIM Back at HIM  ! So God is now 3 — a trinity — (God, The Viewer and The View)

In Gnosis this eye is called The Universal Mind ! In Genesis its called Adam ! Religions like to call this Eye The Messiah (The Christ) !

But God doesn’t want this Eye to be a mere passive reflector; and thus, God blows a breath of Godhood into it (a breath of self consciousness).

The Eye grows Self Conscious to its own presence, its particular significance in God’s Eye, its own importance in God’s Kingdom— THE CORE—-, and in that moment of self re-cognition the Eye turns its vision towards itself, almost like overlooking THE CORE ! But how can this happen other than in a dream-like situation, how can an eye attempt to see beyond sight itself ?!! How can vision escape THAT WHICH HAS NO FRAME TO BEGIN WITH

The eye falls into a dream-like Realm of its own — a dimension with no entrance — a realm of absurdity that caters to the possibility of playing God on the expense of being God — Playing the Savior on the expense of Salvation itself…

Welcome to Planet E ———————— GO     Planet  E——–Scape

This most original act of free will results in the projection of an imperfect world into presence, in translation of what such moment entails — a dream-like realm that stands as a distorted version of God’s kingdom where everything seems inverted — everything seems progressing on a linear journey away from the Creation Moment (away from The Creator) aiming to render that moment history and prove the creator a historical being !

Primal Evil (primeval) you can say is born from the womb of that fatherless moment, cause in the moment The Universal Mind acknowledges his self as separate to The Father’s Self duality is born, and a realm is born to translate what its like to be in a world where God seems separate — An Other — Afar–absent !

Welcome to the d – rea – m we call reality ; and don’t forget the ‘d’ and the ‘m’ which stand for a demented one…

Duality and separation are the mathematics of choice ! They are characteristic of this world we live in ! In this world, we’re torn by the mathematics of choice — between what we think and what we feel – between what we desire and what is right – between being attached to the dream and dismissing it as unreal !

Choice vs. Fate, a very ancient polarity; and every time we think we’re choosing — every time we think we’re progressing on a linear axis towards a destination of our choice, we are struck by the circular mathematics of Fate (The Choiceless Choice) telling us we’re going nowhere…

The second The Universal Mind grew self conscious, He knew he’s being put to the ultimate test; and its not by accident that second also means ‘the one that comes after’ in reference to the second entity born after known as The Devil and His Story we call History — yes the Devil — the spiritual agency that aims to prolong the dream mathematics presenting the best case scenario against Awakening…

Between zooming out in an act of dismissal of the Dream-Like realm that resulted from that dark moment or zooming in in act of departure from the Original Eden of Birth, The Universal Mind knew he was being put to the choice; and so He asked His Creator for help; and the Creator responded by sending forth Eve The Universal Soul (else known as Sophia).

Sophia’s significance is that through her, the Universal Mind can be represented inside the dream, yet through her also he can preserve his awakening status (the Sunshine of that immaculate moment that precedes the Fall).

Sophia became the moon that is sent by the Sun to light the darkness ! Everyone would speak of her beauty and the need for the night to stay young for her to keep shining ! But she knew that as much as she wants to be acknowledged for her beauty, the source of her light is the Sun and cannot but call for the sunshine of that day where she’s no longer in sight — the day of martyrdom when her beauty source is exposed and she surrenders her light back to the Sun…

The Universal Soul is the mind’s delegate into the Dark Realms; and His Story (The Devil’s Story) is known in Gnosis as the Dark Night of the Soul…

The Devil’s Eyes would be directed at her and all his historical schemes are built to frame her, to involve her in a never ending dream scripts called EVE-ENDS (EVENTS) in an attempt to put her into an eternal sleep — to negate through her the significance of God’s choice Adam (The Code of Awakening) !

History to the Devil is the Story of a God who created a world and then went to sleep – forsake it — a Historical God who was defeated by his own creation – a dead God.

Eve would carry the burden of Adam’s Choice to visit imperfection and light the darkness of the worlds under; and her path would be marked by duality and polarity (Sin and Guilt); always embedded inside scripts that aim at framing her in the wrong — crowning her the shining star of darkness.

The Wisdom Behind THE FALL:

In the absence of duality and its agency (polarity) the possibility of any form of knowledge collapses.

Every time we’re conscious of anything, we’re actually engaging in the 01 mathematics; So you can say we’re actually translating the moment of the Fall in every flux of a conscious moment.

Every time I hold a thought, Eve (the Delegate of Infinity) is trapped within a finite frame – within a dream-like script that presents itself as real; and every time I release the thought, Eve awakens to the fact that she’s dreaming — in expression of her connection to her inner truth — the code of awakening (The Adam Code).

So you can say the rhythm of self-consciousness is ruled by a dual tendency:

1, The tendency to pan in (frame a concept) — make something a reality ! When you do so, you fall into the mathematics of the dark moment (The Mind’s temptation to Frame God a Historical Concept after Once being inseparable from Him).

2, The tendency to pan out — you dismiss the real as a dream by way of acknowledgement of a greater reality — and in doing so you actually engage in the awakening Context which entails a return to the Self (The Vortex of Creativity which weaves realities from nothingness)…

Panning in and out, we pass through The Core on our way:

The core is the neutral space in between, neutral which is no man’s land, the bit that stops the two opposing forces from joining ! The ‘Gap’ (the part of Godhood that is strictly HIS – (beyond conception) !

You can’t know the gap, not that you can know the infinite but the gap is like the bridge that can’t be walked ! It’s the last moments before time-space dies. And can you ever know how you enter a dream?!!

Its a suffocating feeling when you wanna scream in a dream but you can’t

And that feeling of suffocation is why we breathe air in the illusion. Air is the concept of time-space manifest.

The mind needs time-space as the body needs air.

Why we breath?

We change polarity in order to keep moving, breathing !

Why we eat is due to the mind’s insatiable need for continuity, the linear aspect.

In order to think we need ‘time’, and yet time is only really bits of the mind playing out, this is why when the mind has consumed itself via remembrance, it has to dismember so that the consumption can continue.

So do you see.

This world of cycles and air and breathing, and food, and evolution/puzzle solving, and water which represents the reflective magical realm (In their world fish can fly…..well they can go up and down as well as side to side, so in their world they can fly……) Trees with roots and branches, snakes and spiders, all that we see as nature, is in fact our true nature symbolically manifest!


Do you know, I told a friend that the world was not real, and he laughed and said, ‘Okay then leave it, but you can’t get out, it is real you are talking s**t.’ He was banging his hand on stuff saying look this is real, you cant get out’ So I said, ‘You are the one talking s**t, the real point that you are making is not that you can’t leave, it’s that you can’t stay !……. You ‘need’ this place to be real and you need it to be real forever because you are scared of nonexistence, but no, you are wrong and short sighted.

No one stays !

One last point about what I will maybe call the neutral zone. The exact moment between life and death, maybe call it the spark that bridges the gap !

Think of a spinning wheel. Turning around it’s centre point.

Even if you had the most powerful microscope known to man. If you tried to see the ‘dead’ centre of that wheel, any thing you can see, even if that is a space, which is not nothing, anything you can see will have relative mass, and so it will turn.

Therefore you can never see/find the dead centre of a wheel.

This is a journey into inner space rather than outer space and to look for the dead centre in microcosm is the same as trying to look for the end of space in macrocosm.

And yes this points to the trinity, the 1, the defining opposite of 0, and the bit that separates them that is neither.

Reality?!! Not So Real After All !

Have you ever woke up inside a dream to realize you’re dreaming !

You see when this happens, the rules of the dream no longer hold, and you suddenly feel you’re scripting the dream yourself — you’re in control of what about to happen…

You see there’s a code hidden in each script that once decoded the script silently surrenders its mathematics to a newer more inviting one !

Life events are like scripts caving in upon you, pushing to frame you, to make you feel the sharp edges of its realness; and its the weight of this feeling that makes reality so disturbingly real…

The crux of the matter is, there’s a reason why you’re here at moment x place y doing what you’re doing, seeing what you’re seeing, being with whom you’re being with — a reason beyond the external causal conditions or steps that sequenced into all this i.e. beyond the past vs. future polarity.

Respect you’re immediate reality (the mathematics of the Now), for the external is always an accurate reflection of the internal. If you’re deeply unhappy, don’t sit and try to unwind your unhappiness through thought. Stand up and look carefully move around, the answer could be closer than what you think…

You see people always talk big ! They talk about the far out future, the high up plans, what they wanna be in 4 years from now… they never stop in fact; and as I see the micro in the macro then I realize to change my reality is as simple as changing the scene around me — to change the world is as simple as changing the minds of the few people next to me !

Otherwise, the world seems to be getting darker by the hour, like a dream turning nightmarish !

Perhaps its God showing us what happens when we take life too seriously – when we start competing ! Competition?!! let’s face it, it is a fight, the goal of a competition is to beat the other guy out of sight…

You see when you fully understand the cycles and how time can’t be hurried or slowed, when you realize that time will play out as it should no matter what you say or do, you know, like that you jump up and down shouting heha heha and realize that that was what you were always going to do at this moment this place.

That’s when you find peace. At first within and then the world will follow…

Some say they want free will but let’s face it, they only want the free will to always win…

Do you see the problem?

In the world of external causality, there’s never a win win situation… If you’re mind is set that moving a rock requires 10 men pushing it, then a man less is considered a full blown reason as to the impossibility of the rock moving ! Causal mathematics caves in externally to claim its conditional marks upon each event and happening; and reality can be tough when calculated this way…

Yet who said a Rock Moving has to be so tied into 10 Men Pushing ! In truth, a rock moving is an independent concept altogether and at some point in time Huge rocks where lifted up in the air in translation of few words uttered by mouths of men like Hermes…

Sometimes something you’ve just thought about happens, or someone that comes to mind, shows up, yet you still ask WHY and HOW?!!

Your mind asking is a mental glitch…

We so underestimate the liquidity of the spectrum between the internal and external… We’re so used to second think what comes inside first through what we see outside next; and this is how the dream grows unbearably real, and its how we loose touch with the mathematics of awakening !

Welcome to History; and I challenge you to try to make sense of it !

So Brutally Divine ! God’s Hiding in You Away From Godhood !

The mind has to shift polarity in order to maintain presence !

Thinking is a movement, if it ever we stop thinking, then its like we’d cease to exist !

We may sleep cause we’re fragments, and even then, dreams are but a visual form of thinking… We sleep so that we can be woken by the whole, but then if the collective mind as a whole ever stopped thinking, if it ever slept (so to speak), if it succumb to the infinite nothingness, then it could never reboot, as nothing stays nothing, nothing can come from nothing.

A soul seeking a unity that is beyond conception, is hell in itself.


Simple !!! Cause, in such hypothetical nirvana time would reel in, the finite would become infinite, thought would slow down to a stand still and the two opposite aspects of the one would collide to annihilate each other ! THIS IS YOU CAN SAY THE MAXIMUM OF HELL TO IMAGINE !

And here comes the ever so forbidden wisdom behind the symbolic FALL from Eden ! Believe it or not, this world we’re in (as we know it to be) in the very laws we’re so dying to break, in the manner its spread out and scattered apart by times and distances, in the way space allows for motion and change within, in the way time is somehow locked up from happening all at once, is HEAVEN in disguise !

Think of it, its a world so loving and embracing that it protects you from your own self, it preserves you into something against your own self destructive ‘spiritual’ yearning to wanna melt into nothingness !

Can’t ever not despise the vegetarian modesty we humans are forever so proud to express when we direct our vision up to the skies, to some heaven so far and above this world into some divine magic so beyond to the point that we trip and fall at the slightest hint of human logic… Paradise?!! No thanks, not for me….

The only way to survive, and yes to end the pain of solitary was to separate and scatter ! Yes, your mind had to destroy absoluteness, hide from it somehow or it would be THE END ! And what wisdom is to force your mind into something its so dying to escape from by default mode ?!!!

All that was so lovingly collected and re-membered (the selfless self we so desire to melt into – that nirvana —- the yoga poetry) had to be dropped in an instant, the reassembling mind had to explode ! Bang ! Big Bang ? !!! (Hide). Yes, God is hiding inside you away from Godhood ! So Brutally Divine, isn’t it ?!!

Evil’s plan has always been to protest the God in Adam by praising a God so above and so beyond; and voila (let me introduce you to the mother of every earthly brutality) ! Its plan is to cripple you on earth by the promise of another world so above you and a divinity so beyond you that all you can do really is literally sit down and pray, die waiting ; this is all to belittle Adam in you, using the notion of The Fall as an evidence of defilement ! So you believe the Fall down is bad?!! But then aren’t you the one who’s seeking a paradise beyond directions?!!

Taxing the Soul is a Devil’s expertise ! Ironically its adopted and endorsed by every religious system on earth ! You see this Devil wants you to be more spiritual than what simply matters ! He wants you to be too holy to be on this earth anyways !

You see, the fall is a survival mode.

What does that mean in ‘reality’, it means that all traces of a Godhood beyond Adam had to be purged from the mind – all had to be sacrificed for the sake of BEING (this miracle that is too obvious to see, too encompassing to sense) !

So you think ‘Satanaku’ lead Adam out of heaven? Satanaku is a useful script that is blind to its own code. Blindness is not a reality, its a state !

Divinity above Adom (Adam) is hell, I have described this many times.

The fall, the scatter was undertaken to escape the hell of not being anything. If you are to melt back into such state, there won’t be much of you left to know you exist in the first place; and between existing and being a piece of crap on this earth and not existing at all, tell me now what would you choose or how would you ever stand to fathom your choice to begin with.

You never quit moaning and groaning do you ?!! You never quit complaining about the hell you take this world to be ! Try not existing at all and then come back and tell me stories about heaven and the other world…

This world in any state is indeed heaven in comparison to eternal solitary insanity.
‘Holiness’ never quits crucifying you in the name of an unknown God, taxing every instance of fulfillment by a bitter taste of a mysterious hunger, every physical certainty with a shadow of a spiritual doubt, Everything you know for everything you don’t !

go figure !