Sorry I Am NOT Who You Think I Am

This is Behavioral Goodness that they mistake for ‘real goodness’, when (in fact) it has nothing to do with what goodness truly is. Authentic goodness is as free as a spirit can be. It cannot be contained by any code of behavior. How could it be, when itself has inspired all such codes since the beginning of time?!!!

Those codes, whether they speak on behalf of morality, religion, ethics (whatever) are at best more like veils to the Language of the Spiritthan anything else — veils constructed across space & time to shelter human weakness and fear of spiritual freedom; and absurdly grown to speak on behalf of a logic that is beyond space & time — its more like magic – the Magic of the SUN that never sleeps as it eternally lights the universe for u and me…

As those veils fall (one after the other); and as we approach the very end of the road (at the cross point where eternity converges and diverges with space and time and where the heavenly meet the earthly for a hi & a goodbye), and as humanity in this age of advanced communication technologies are freed some by some from the behavioral cages of morality, ethics & religion, and are connecting based on a more ancient cognitive code, the question becomes: will u be able to fly along the Spirit the freedom u’ve been promised for so long or will the gravity of ur fear and doubt of such freedom nail u down helplessly?

Will u be able to define for yourself by yourself what goodness truly is, or will u get lost and confused by such freedom that u return back willingly to the cage, only this time there is no longer any hope of every being freed from it again?

Will ur soul be able to flap the wings of Spiritual freedom, or will the weight of all those behavioral veils weigh those wings down?

Inside the saftey of the Behavioral Cage, u were brought up to think that Good and Evil are at a constant battle, at a true rivalry; and that ur protected by the iron bars of morality & religion from evil and that as a ‘Good Person’ u must contain yourself and restrain it from the unlimited freedom out there that The Devil claims as his own (by way of an earthly compensation for the heavenly hell awaiting him).

Pathetic logic!!! I’d rather hell…
To put it in simpler terms, the idea is that ‘bad people’ are allowed to be what they wish to be and do whatever they want to do on this earth at any given time, yet there is no room for good people here on earth (they r to wait their promised land somewhere up in the skies whilst they die in conformity and deprivation day after day)…

What pathetic logic!!!!
Earth is not evil for the Devil to claim!!! Earth is God’s’ choice!! It is not a battle ground for an imaginary war between God & The Devil… There is no such war; and the Devil was caged the moment his Ego was brought down to this earth…
True goodness is unrivaled to begin with…

Being good has never been about ‘deprivation’ or ‘sacrifice’!!! It has always been about enjoying God’s gift to u; and the only sacrifice that counts is ur ignorance of that gift which automatically translates misery decorated with a sugary coat of morality and religion…

Aren’t u worse than a baby to be brought into behaving under the promise of a present awaiting u in a future?!! Ponder over the meaning of a “present” u’d understand how absurd it is to wait for it…

Aren’t u exhibiting extreme hunger when u deprive urself of water now under the promise of drowning into rivers of milk and honey in the heavenly future awaiting u? Aren’t u ashamed of such logic?

And so, u’ve been brain washed to associate goodness in the back of ur mind with constraint, renunciation, deprivation, sacrifice; and evilness (on the other hand) is associated with every  desire u can ever think of — every expression of freedom u can ever imagine — every gesture of earthly reward u can ever dream of;

and how could that be for goodness sake?

Really? How could that be when freedom is an inherent attribute of The Spirit to begin with?!!! How could that be when The Spirit shines like the sun with 360 degree freedom in every breathing moment?!!! And what could ever be more rewarding than the freedom of redefining the right and wrong in ur immediate presence, in every momentary choice u make and every moment u live and with the flux of every shining ray of that eternal sun of consciousness that dwells within u and inspires ur thoughts, expressions and action?

So, the question is to u:

Can u handle Spiritual Freedom?

Can u trust urself outside The Cage of Religion and Morality and all other behavioral identity u’ve been brought to mistake for urself?

Can u explore ur abilities to fly without being reminded of the safety of the Cage?

Or will u need the Cage to shelter u and contain u away from ur self?

Can u learn how to surf the high tides of Good & Evil without tripping and falling into the waters of guilt and regret?

Can u walk the path of ur earthly desires undefiled by the logic of sin?

Can u climb all the way to the steep heights of the mountain of freedom overlooking hell, and yet still not fear falling down and breaking ur neck?!!!

Can u do that? Or rather, do u know what does it take to be able to do that?!!! Or do u have to hold a menu of do’s and don’ts to feel safer on ur trip?

I don’t know about u; but I’ll speak for myself!! I’ll tell u how I feel: I perhaps can’t still live up to such degree of freedom, maybe I can fly that high yet, but I promise myself am trying – am testing my wings and exploring the horizon of freedom day after day, minute after minute, with all the will power bestowed upon me…

With all due modesty, what I confirm to u is that am never ok with u or anyone ever framing me as “good” in associattion to anything I say, write or do…

Cos when u hold me up there on some high pedestal, ur chaining me, ur caging me and preventing me from flying; and when I do try to fly after that, the higher is the pedestal the stronger is the pressure of a potential fall…

I don’t want u to like me for the image u see in that frame!!! I simply could never bury my spirit inside a dead mold of a statue u honor me with… I am who I am, molded
of honor and disgrace… I choose to be like Alexander in his ruthlessness when I need to, Socrates in his rebelliousness if I want to, Job in
his patience with situations that call for it and perhaps Joseph in his Love towards the people who are worth such love…

Don’t ever ask of me to be ‘Goodness framed‘!!! I am the ancient fruit of an intermarriage between the heavens and the earths. I have both ‘the logic of the
rise and the fall’ running through my veins; and I never could’ve known what heavenly ascencion means until I’ve known how to love and embrace my earthly fall, my weaknesses, my fears, my errors and and everything in me that shocks u — every impurity and imperfection…
I will not abide by any image of goodness u try to frame me with… Am not a role claimer… Am not a writer or some messenger of truth… Am not here to help u see the light!!
Am here to help myself!! I am here to Help myself be who i am, remind and be reminded of who I am!!! I am here to raise havoc not to be a ‘good boy’…
I am here to rebel and revolt and to stand up for the mountains of peace and rage burning inside me!!! I am not here to be spiritual, am here to
be a free spirit and there is a big difference

I need u to acknowledge me for that… I do not need ur sympathy for any weakness u mistake goodness to be or ur admiration towards any strength u fear badness is…

I know what I need exactly. I need ur acknowledgement.

I need to mess with u until u learn how to mess back… I need u to reflect back to
me my own beauty in an image that makes me feel alive again and I’d do the same for u then.

I am here to celebrate being in space and time,
appreciate who I am at this moment… I am here to capture a moment that brings me closer to myself, remind me of my own significance..

Otherwise, I won’t have a strong enough reason to write what I write or any inspiration to express how i feel…

I speak up for a long forbidden beauty that hates to be caged no more and wishes to be known. You can think of it as the revolution of a Spirit
inside a thristy Soul that is invited to drink and to get drunk with such beauty into a forgiven blasphemy…

My soul I feel now as blank as a white sheet ready to be written on by the ink of a spiritual revolution — stories of every freedom that was ever stolen in the name of good & evil…

I do not care to save u! Save u from whom? From urself? Who am I to claim such power or undertake such endeavor? U go and save urself… And may God forever save me from the Savior Role the moment u try to frame me within it — this role that has brought kings and emperors down from their grand pivots of glory to the pitfalls of their spiritual hollowness, just when they expected to rise…
Cos God can give and give and give of what u know how to ask him for; and the moment u ask for what u don’t know how to ask for he takes everything away from u — at that moment u fall naked into a dumb pathetic image of goodness and u act pathetically like a criminal failing to believe he’s gotten away with his crime, and so
God responds to u: “well then, come and serve ur sentance!!”
And u’d ask God: “Why is it that when I chose to be ‘good’ u took away from me everything?!!! The answer is that u cannot choose to be ‘good’. U have a demented view of what’s goodness is!!!
U’ve just proven that u know nothing about goodness… U dropped what know u have for what u don’t know crap about, and so, ur left with nothing… U tried to become a
Savior on the expense of being what u r already, so u’ve proven u had no identity of ur own to begin with – that u’ve stolen all what u previously claimed as urs!!! suffer then the tough logic of crucifiction – die on that cross…
How can u be a savior when u don’t know how to save urself? U wanna be a savior?!! then suffer the crucifiction rank!!! Suffer ur naked truth, ur hollow spiritual reality which u tried to fill with ur empires of gold and silver!!! U’ve just admitted that u were not
even worthy of all that Gold just when u thought ur giving up ur Gold for God!!! God doesn’t need ur Gold, doesn’t need ur praise or reward….

U think ur a Savior for dropping it all, then loose all and get on that cross, and as u look up to the skies above asking God “why have u forsaken me” God will answer u from a closer place than u expect – from with ur own self in a logic so obvious: How can the Savior save someone trying to be a Savior on the expense of his own salvation?!!!

So be it known unto u then that Goodness is not a weakness or a sacrifice (never been and never will be); and a baby in his crib knows better that u can never ever be anything in life (and i mean nothing) just standing on the defensive. And the God of Goodness will surprise u as u see him grant the Evil men who use their mind power, authority and priority on this earth over those who waver their rights and hold up instead the flag of goodness and cripple their minds in the name of such Goodness — those who live like mummies and act like dummies in the name of being ‘good’ and behaving…

Sometimes u find urself compelled to be everything u’ve never thought u could ever be just in order to be…. Will u Be?

Sometimes, u find that the only way to ever know that u know how to use ur mighty sword is the moment u use that sword and get it soaked with blood and filth. Will u use ur sword?

You’re not being asked here or encouraged to fight or go on a killing spree… Don’t get me wrong!!! Ur only being reminded that the way to the ultimate good u may aspire to may involve reclaiming what Evilness stole from u in the name of goodness. Can u do that?!! If u can’t than never again speak of a Lost Kingdom to be retrieved or of Chosen People to be glorified… Better waste ur time and energy to survive in this world and secure yourself some food and shelter…

So, here u are expecting the judgment day to approach with ur eyes fixated upon the skies for signs of the upcoming war of annihilation; and suddenly ur invited to a custom party, where every member has to wear a mask of evil over his face; yet the party itself is ironically acelebration of the good people… And so u ask the doorman, who’s in the party and what are we celebrating here? He answers “its Jacob in there and The Chosen from amongst the tribes of Israel (the blessed ones) celebrating the retrieval of the Lost Kingdom and the Usurped Throne (the Stolen Seal of Solomon) back to its rightful owners…

Party? Good People wearing Evil Masks? What the hell?!!! This is the last thing u imagined the end time scenario to be like…u were more like expecting a seat inside in the Stadium scheduled to host the End Time match between good and evil…
“U gotta be kidding me!!!!” u speak to urself: “Me?!!! Wearing a Mask of Evil?!!! Attending a Costume Party?!!!” Well Yes, haven’t evil always been funny and entertaining?!!! What did u think u can take it as seriously and still outlive it?!!!

You gotta learn how to dance in that party with freedom; and sometimes to dance to such freedom, u may be mistaken for the mask ur wearing, not because ur inherently evil or anything (god forbids), but because the freedom of those who are truly good scare those who are truly ignorant at such confusing moments. For, those ignorant have always feared and resented Spirit Freedom; and they’ve built a cage called history based on such fear and resentment made of the iron bars of morality, ethics, religion, nationality (u name it); and when their history was penetrated by a moment of truth; when those they’ve mocked as ‘good’ wear an ‘evil mask’ and dance to loud music, they’re struck by inexplicable fear and confusion; and so like a blind fighting the darkness they swing their swords left and right in hope they can return a sign of a secure stance…

When u know urself enough, u can wear any Evil mask and swear in the name of every Evil any time u wish so and enjoy the Costume party with zero guilt or concern… Evil and Good to u become one and the same — two characters without which the play cannot go running; and u r only a witness to that play…
How can there ever be real darkness anyways in the presence of the blinding sun?!! In the Sun’s reality, its pure light – 360 VISION – Spirit – panoramic Freedom  – Unlimited Will Power to recreate and redefine what’s Good momentarily… For what does the light do other than light upon existence defining every object in this universe momentarily? So how can the light be framed by the object it brings to vision?!!!
Directions and paths fade in the wake of such reality, and what u see as the good that is far away and unreachable and the Evil that threatens u along ur long journey to that good, all disappear like shadows collapsing at noon sun…
There is no path to begin with when there is no longer a destination, when Destiny and The destined become one, u become the Path and the Destination itself; and the path becomes as short as where u stand here and now…

This is the God’s present to u – THE PRESENT. This is the Lost Kingdom ur meant to reclaim — its in here within ur reach, in the scope of ur immediate sight – its right where u stand right here right now…
How many steps do u have to walk away from your shadow to realize that its walking along with u?How many steps do u have to walk away from THE NOW to realize that its walking along with u? How many a space and time u have to travel to find out that ur standing still in eternity…

Welcome to the costume party!!! I’ve just entered just with u; and I don’t know about u but myself am reclaiming everything that evil ever took away from me in the name of goodness, holiness, sacredness, morality, ethics… and am going to wear the Mask of Evil and laugh at it as I take it off to try another; and am going to have a blast (pure guiltless fun), am going to dance and clap for Evil so loud, cos someone needs to remind the ignorant that the play is over and that the curtains are down…
I have no longer any image of a Behavioral Goodness that i feel committed to… Am blank, purified from such goodness… For, purity has never been about cleansing evilness… That would be a detergent… Purity has always been about being beyond defilement to begin with; and so any filth would not have had any effect upon u– above the stupid language of good and evil and its contrived scripts and codes of conducts…

Am ready to surf the high tides of good & evil without being threatened by tripping and drowning, ready to surf magic without being threatened by logic…. Am
blank!! neutral to any preconceptions of good and evil, and I’ve just exited a museum full of statues of all the people medusa has turned into stone – all those who have died before me — those whose logic have failed the magic of the moment and they only live and breath now like zombies to serve ignorance and fear and add to the chaos and confusion…

The ignorant built their code of behavior by imitating the good; and so in their dictionary, they’ve always associated goodness to an image — a dead image. But the true goodness (that is the spirit) is so alive and it defines what’s right momentarily… How can u superimpose a dead image on something so alive…
How can u veil the sun’s reality by a cloud of darkness?!! And doesn’t the Sun shine through any cloud making the cloud itself shine along with it?!!

You think ur being “good” doing that? You feel better about urself? You feel safer where u stand? Well!! Sorry to tell u, ur not being good, u’ve just fallen into a cage, a trap called goodness that will deliver u in the end to ur death bed…
If ur a Rabi, a Priest, an Imam or a Sheikh, ur expected to be this and that, to act like this and act like that… Tell me now that ur not dying like a mummy inside a casket or acting like a dummy inside a cage — trying to conform to what others see and expect from u…

Forgive me!!

I don’t identify with such goodness; never did, never will… I respect a path someone has chosen so long as his spirit shines through that path… So long as he makes me forget he’s a Rabi or Sheikh or priest…. I respect a costume someone is wearing, so long as he wears the costume and not the costume wears him….
I look up to men like Socrates, Alexander the Great, Rebellious men like my Father as well… I look up to them cause they escaped the trap of the savior complex, and were not good enough to save but themselves right when they’re most expected to die saving others; they returned back the slap, right when they were most expected to apologize…

I don’t wanna die in anyone’s image of goodness… This is why I loose people all the time as I flip images… They fall for a given image, and when I grow out of it, they hate me for it – they hate my spiritual freedom… They don’t understand that am in the party to have fun and not to be good; and that am Ok with changing masks only because am at peace with who I am under all those masks… If I was not, then am sure one of those masks would’ve swallowed my face…

Doubt?

Am trying to outsmart the logic of doubt, cause Doubt is the logic of Negating the Obvious… When I negate the obvious, I distance myself from my immediate reality. I give up something I know for something I don’t!!! I give up a bird in hand for 10 out there up on that far away tree!!! I surrender my present security for a future mystery!!!

I am where I stand right here right now… I need to contain myself before u contain me with ur frames!!

Have u ever noticed that each time u think of God, ur slapped by an image of doubt and a hollowness inside, ur back with a hunger bigger than the one u’ve embraked upon with… U return a pathetic image of helplessness which u mistake to be goodness…
That’s because when u think of God, ur objectifying God, reducing God to a number, and in doing so, ur reducing urself too into this helpless number in a universe so full of numbers; and the funny thing is that u make those numbers come in sizes and shapes.

When u think of God, ur basically separating urself as a Thinker from the Object of ur thought (God)… And separation is the translation of doubt… So, every time u feel like doubting God, think of God…
U wanna be at-one with GOD? Just be… Listen to ur Spirit whispering through ur soul beautiful thoughts, listen to unity whispering to u from behind a universe of multiplicity…
when u think God, u become a number and u assume God to be another number that is bigger than u… So u give numbers sizes, and this is a mathematical absurdity; and the mountain suddenly becomes a big number, and here u are this small number standing short next to it. The tree just above ur head threatens to be a scary number… It threatens to fall on ur head and crush ur skull.. U forget one simple truth though!!! One is One!! It can never be bigger than itself or smaller!!!
so if its true that God is unity, then who r u to mess with such unity and give it sizes and shapes?
U enter the realm of number, ur soul is tormented and multiplied by thousands of possibilities, and this defies the simple and secure logic of Unity that represents ur safe and ancient home… U feel alienation, separation… U divide urself into 2 and then 3 and then 4 and then and then and then, then suffer the multiplication factor… U add a
number into ur reality which u call God, then suffer the substraction factor, u’ve just substracted urself from HIM – from the equation of existence
altogether… Cos how can u be outside God to think u can think of Him…

Yes, division bring about multiplication, and addition calls for Subtraction; and peace be upon u on ur trip back to Unity!!!
Soul turns its face towards the Sun — Spirit — freedom — unity, and the Light projected from the Sun (universal mind) casts itself at her
Face!! And what do u do?!! You forget about the light and get lost in details (in number) — u get lost in the eyes, the mouth, the nose — that u can no longer see the beauty of the whole Face…
U wanna loose urself into multiplicity? Well, suffer then the loss of vision as u turn ur face away from the sun… U wanna melt back into Unity, u will no longer be there to know it!!!!

When will u learn to accept both the rise and the fall?!! When will u learn to be both Unity & Multiplicity at once and none at the same time?!! Unless u do that u’ll  never comprehend what’s it like to be GOD — to make peace… U gotta learn how to be sin and deed simultaneously, Guilt and repentance at once, doubt and certainty in one, good and evil combined…
God wants u to see HIS Unity within the scope of duality and multiplicity… he wants u to verify such Unity without being absorbed by it and contain his Multiplicity without being lost in it;
He doesn’t want u to melt in what u see lest u stop seeing, and he doesn’t want u to see beyond what u see cause that is called blindness in his dictionary…
He wants u to just keep seeing without being distracted by the possibility of sight itself… He wants u to enjoy the flow of vision — enjoy
what u see!! Its his gift to u and by enjoying it, u express ur appreciation of it.. He neither wants u to worship his unity that u can’t
see or His multiplicity that crams ur sight. He wants u to stay alive and awake for his beauty, never to sleep….

So its like the code… U get distracted by any script coded by it, u can no longer see the miracle of coding itself. You get lost in number and suddenly each object u see pops like a God in itself; and this is the spirit of ancient paganism right there happening to u here and now (and u thought paganism was a thing of history)…

You try to touch the many Gods of ur pagan reality, u loose ur eye to ur arm. U forget ur arm and turn back ur eyes to the face of the God of Unity, don’t expect to see anything beyond ur own immediate blinding realty – the reality of an eye looking through you back at u…
All what u see and what u don’t see is an illusion of multiplicity that originated to express ur simple unity; yet neither ur unity nor ur multiplicity makes up for who u r in finality!! Cos u r a GOD and u can neither frame urself or escape urself by way of becoming the frame… U can only be urself; And ur problem is that in the wake of being urself u choose becoming, and so u create from the dot of eternity a universe made of space, time and endless possibilities…

Yes, this is the story of the Eva dwelling inside me and u… Her story is that she contains what she sees before what she sees detains her; and as she gets tired of her tiresome role and thus she looks back at Unity (The Spirit) for some peace to
save her from her infinite nature; and Adam looks back at her with love, blessing her dark world with light, remolding her sinful reality with pure repentance, granting her new eyes to see through, new possibilities of sight to explore…

Yes, the Soul, unlike The Spirit, can be divided and multiplied; this is the nature of her universe that is made of number…
And for the SOUL to remain in tact, She has to surrender the multiplicity characteristic of her realm, even if this means surrendering herself back to Adam’s rib (back to her ancient secure crib); and just when she’s ready to giver herself up for good, Adam saves her back in her own world, through her own language… He shows her through Her very eyes and her very logic her beauty and significance, and the logic of the Rise that justifies every fall — every error she takes her world to represent; How else could Adam be the Giver that he is without her?!! The Sun shines for sure with or without the world, but it shines with greater meaning when there is a world to light underneath….

It was important that we live Eva’s martyr rank in our own stories, but we have to realize that Eva did not die in the context of martyrdom…
She won her life back; and u can never appreciate true life save in the moment u are most ready to die and face death and see it in ur very eyes as she did… As for this unconsciousness in between that u call a life, I’ve said it once and say it again, it is at best a funeral in the making, a shadow world mistaken to have a life of its own…

When will I realize that Eva was brought back to life?!! When will I celebarate her rebirth? When will I realize and that my soul’s been given the green light to shine for who I am and show the world the beauty of what I can do; My failure to see and feel this reality has now become my very punishment, my very torture, my very hell…

A man in his early 40s so rich yet he chooses not to use any of his richness, so powerful that he can turn sand into Gold through his fingers, yet he punishes me and u by not using any of his powers; by not indulging with any of such freedom — and ur soul and mine suffer deprivation, and he’s promised me and u to suffer and suffer and suffer for more until we learn for ourselves the meaning of ascension
encoded in the fall…

No more shall he stop us from harming ourselves like he’s done in the past… “Go!!! You’re outside the cage now!!” he says — free to explore urself for ureself by urself and know for urself why and how u die or live eternally…
Its not my fault that I’ve tried to contain u — its my love language. When Adam’s light visited my realm and projected his Unity unto my world, I was freed from the guilt u hold me responsible for… I was repented… Adam blessed the imperfection u take me to be? Who r u not to accept me? You in in ur arrogance couldn’t bring urself to accept the reality that God himself accepted…
God blessed u with a gift, and u arrogantly returned it back… What can God do for u by way of salvation beyond that which u cannot and choose not to do to urself?!! If God tries to save u in ways u cannot fathom, u’ll never understand the meaning of such salvation, and then u’ll curse him instead of thanking him, wouldn’t u?.

U go now!! Ur free!! Go and Search for the God in u, try to find Him in every sin and guilt and imprfection, ull see him there speaking to u and when u see him there, u can no longer see sin or imperfection no more…
Try to preserve the peace of the God in u in every situation… Don’t try to contain Unity, do not attempt to frame ur spirit… Don’t fall into the Savior frame… U try to
do that seeking importance while all u end up doing is translating ur impotence!!!
Never judge any place ur at or situation ur in as bad, evil or sinful… Never think that standing by the dumbster is less important that on a pedestal….
Never brand a moment as important for the importance of what u think u r doing in that moment; cause at best, the world in all its grandity right
here right now is but a description, and how can a part of a description be more important than another part of the same one description?? A description is a description, its a whole and when u divide it seeking importance, all what u get in return is impotance..

U make a number bigger than another and u think that bigger is better.. U think the President in the White house is a much much bigger number than u… How can this be when u and him are both numbers describing the same unity…. You imagine him to be bigger than u and more important and u build systems of meanings and codes piled upon scripts based on such fake importance, but the truth remains no one could ever be more important than another by virtue of such absurdity, and the only measurment of importance in such case is how awakened u r to the true logic of measurement itself…
The more u realize that u and the president are equally part of the same description, the more u realize that none of u can be at a better vantage point than a witness, witnessing the described describing itself through u…

No need for muscle power and moving mountains with force…. To witness is all what is asked of u…

So what matters then what he can do or and u can’t by way of intention or lack of it, when a shadow can never escape the real object, and the description can never escape the Described?!!!

All this world u see with its complexity is describing the simplicity of this fact, describing the possibility of u seeing urself. You move this world by
ur eyes and not by ur muscle power… Yes, the world (with all its grandity, its kings and empires and wars of greed) is
describing a simple truth that is in u but ur oblivious to, a reality ur causing by a blink of a motion from an allseeing eye residing within… When u verify the witness in u, u verify the string that is moving the marionette, u can no longer get taken by the motions of the marionette any more….

What matters to u after that if am sleeping or walking, sinning or talking or just being a worthless piece of crap?!!

Give me one logical reason why should I care how u see me when ur not the judge!! I am…

I crowned u a judge by my own consent when I allowed u to enter my reality without nocking at my door?!!

How can I understand ur judgment without u speaking my language?!! Why should I take ur judgment for any worth if its my language to begin with and not urs…

U exist only to remind me of who I already am..

That’s all..

U have no significance beyond that, and when I hear u and ur harsh judgments, I am but hearing the voice of my own blindness, my own ignorance, my own ego which I built with my own hands to secure a reality am blind to…
You’re only translating me!!!

How can I loose myself to u?!! How can I loose myself to the translation? How can I be so in denial to the cause by way of admittance to its effect?!!!
What matters what am doing or not doing…
All a waste of a gift, A misuse of free will, and a responsibility that I inflicted upon myself, a worthless commitment to a cage I built as a shelter away from a freedom I fear out of pure ignorance…

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